Awkward...?

I generally think I'm pretty good with people. I don't tend to get too caught up in silly things and I think I'm easy to get along with (although when I receive motions to suppress on Friday afternoons it's all I can do not to go completely circus-freak crazy and declare jihad, but that's another post).

I point this out only because tonight was one of those rare circumstances when I had absolutely NO idea how to handle the interpersonal situation in which I found myself. To wit: I kind of had a date tonight but it was also not a date. A few years ago I met this guy and we became friends, then we dated for awhile. Then we both moved away and we lost contact for a couple years. We reconnected a few weeks ago and we were finally able to hang out tonight. We went and saw the movie Doubt (which was a good movie (and we also ran into my judge there which was totally unexpected)) and I spent the whole time trying to decide whether we were there on a date or there as friends. It was really bizarre to know someone pretty well and to have a history and still have no idea how to deal with them. Sometimes we'd laugh and look at each other and it was one way and then 10 seconds later it was the opposite. It was maddening!

Now I sit here puzzled. I guess this is just the control freak in me trying to put everything into its neat little category with its little label so that i know how to process it. I should probably not stress about it and just let whatever happens happen... Good luck with that, I know.

Oh well, I guess since I can't do anything about it I'm going to do something productive like clean up my kitchen.

here's another thing i hate

I hate these random quizzes things. But i do like the pretty pictures at the end:

You Are An INTP

The Thinker You are analytical and logical - and on a quest to learn everything you can. Smart and complex, you always love a new intellectual challenge. Your biggest pet peeve is people who slow you down with trivial chit chat. A quiet maverick, you tend to ignore rules and authority whenever you feel like it. In love, you are an easy person to fall for. But you're not an easy person to stay in love with. Although you are quite flexible, you often come off as aloof or argumentative. At work, you are both a logical and creative thinker. You are great at solving problems. You would make an excellent mathematician, programmer, or professor. How you see yourself: Creative, fair, and tough-minded When other people don't get you, they see you as: arrogant, cold, and robotic

What's Your Personality Type?

Also I hate it when my entire courtroom team is out sick.

Why I hate Logan

It's weird to grow up in a small town. You are constantly seeing people you know, even the ones you don't like, it's just inevitable. Then you move away for awhile and embrace the relative anonymity that a city like Salt Lake provides (and granted this isn't exactly a metropolis but it's a heckuva lot bigger than Logan) and you forget what it's like in said small town. Then you go home for a few days, and have breakfast at the local hot spot restaurant and encounter spadefulls of people you know from years gone by. And of course that means I have to explain over and over again what I'm doing: Yes I'm a lawyer. Yes I'm a big time prosecutor. Yes that is cool. No I haven't seen (insert random name from the past) lately. Oh really, she had another child? No I'm not married. Yes, I have a boyfriend -- didn't expect that one did you? (that last part isn't strictly true but its comic value is off the charts). No, sadly I won't be able to help your cousin with her divorce but give her my best... Etc. Meanwhile my eggs have gone cold.

I guess it's cool that people care enough about me to ask me things like that. I mostly attribute it to my parents being somewhat notorious figures (in small town terms). And I guess there is a part of me that really does long for that kind of small town connected feeling. I noticed in the paper there was an opening for a deputy county attorney. Maybe I'll apply...

"Justice"

I told myself I wouldn't blog about work, at least not about the specifics of my work because I have to deal with sensitive, important stuff and all that. Despite that earlier promise, I encountered a situation today that cries out for at least a mention, because it has me very upset. I was screening a case today in which there are 3 co-defendants. All three did exactly the same thing. When they get busted, the police officer that responded charged two of them with class B misdemeanors and charged the other kid with a third degree felony. I jokingly told my paralegal that the third kid must be a minority... and it turns out he is! That is the only difference! I am outraged by this police officer who thinks the two white kids should get slaps on the wrists while the little latino kid should be severely punished when all three did the exact same thing. Of course I fixed it and charged all three at the same level, but I am still outraged that this kind of crap happens. Thats all.

Defiled!

I have been victimized.

Again!

The sanctity of my office has been invaded (again) by unsavory, criminal minded fiends (again). Observe the nefarious acts of vile depredation below:

Now I am many things. But a 10 year old girl is NOT one of them. So to come in and discover that someone has festooned my office with stickers of teddy bears, High School Musical, and most deplorably of all... Hannah Montana(!)... Well let's just say that my suffering was great.

I vow to track down the culprit of this heinous act and exact my revenge!

It begins

Jan 1 is finally here. That means the long awaited weight loss competition can commence. My court room team has agreed to each contribute $5 into a pool and the person who has lost the highest percentage of weight by the end of January wins the entire pool. I plan to win, naturally. Since part of this process requires public accountability, my starting weight this morning is a ghastly 228.8 lbs(!).